Penis Enlargement

My sexual fantasies have begun to change lately, and I welcome the op¬portunity to explore the changes.
I am a 37-year-old woman, married and a graduate student. My husband and I have been together for six years. When we got married, we had it all going for us – mental, physical and emotional rapport. Our sex life was the best I’d ever known. I was having orgasms regularly, either from manual or oral stimulation though rarely from intercourse. Prior to meeting my hus¬band, I hadn’t climaxed much in any way with men but had always come while masturbating if I fantasized. My masturbation fantasies were of be¬ing dominated and forced to have sex by faceless men and, occasionally, faceless women. (My real experiences have been exclusively with men.) I was able to climax with my husband regularly if I used my familiar face-less submission fantasies.
Anyway, about two years ago our sex life began to deteriorate. Gradu-ally it reached the point where my husband could not maintain an erection at all, and we totally stopped having intercourse. I tried everything I could think of from sexy nightgowns and candle-lit dinners, to pleading for us to go for marriage counseling. My husband refused to consider counseling for about a year and then reluctantly agreed to go when I threatened to leave him.
To make a long story short, after some sessions with the therapist our sex life resumed somewhat, but we quit going, and within a month we were down to no sex again. I still love my husband very much and don’t want to divorce him, but his sexual withdrawal has left me feeling so inadequate as a woman. I didn’t think my self-esteem was this shaky, but then I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love him. And believe it or not, in every other way he’s a great husband.
Last spring I met a man in one of my classes at school. Brian first caught my eye because I liked his looks – tall, thin, blond hair, blue eyes. The more I got to know him, the more I liked his mind, his sense of humor, etc. And I find him incredibly sexy. Sitting next to him in class, I can feel him in every pore of my body. I don’t think I’ve ever been as physically aware of another human being before (although this is probably due to my de¬prived state). Many times I’ve come home from school with my underpants soaking wet just from being near him.
Now for the fantasy changes: In the last month or two, my lifelong mas¬turbation fantasies have changed. No more faceless men forcing me to do things I really wouldn’t want done in reality. Now I just picture Brian mak¬ing love to me as I’d really like to experience it, and I have the most in¬credible orgasms.
Fantasy 1: Brian asks me if he can meet me after class at a park near school. We meet and he tells me he can’t stand it anymore, he’s dreaming about me, fantasizing constantly, etc. He’s tried to fight it because he’s married too, but he had to tell me. We kiss passionately, and hungrily begin exploring each other’s bodies. He takes my shirt and bra off and begins sucking on my nipples until I think I’ve died and gone to heaven. Gradually he reaches down and gently stimulates my clitoris (I’m soaking wet) until I explode into orgasm. I caress his penis (it feels wonderful) and tell him I want him. As he enters me, I climax again, and when he comes in a joyous, noisy rush, I have my third orgasm.
Fantasy 2: Now that we’ve begun our affair, we start meeting regularly at motels, friends’ apartments, etc. One night while sucking on my nipples, he murmurs that he’d like to do this for hours. I tell him to go right ahead. After ten minutes or so of his exquisite mouth, I have an orgasm from breast stimulation alone (this has never happened in reality). Then I go down on him and lovingly perform fellatio until he explodes in my mouth and I happily swallow his semen (something I’ve never fantisized doing to anyone before. I’ve never been that crazy about it). He tells me he loves to eat me and performs cunnilingus on me until I have five or six orgasms. We do and try everything, fingers up each other’s asses, anal sex every¬thing. We’re both extremely vocal and tell each other before, during and after sex how much we love to fuck, eat, etc., each other. We tell each other our sexual dreams and fantasies about each other and try out every one of them. After we fuck, he always stays inside me and, within 15 or 20 minutes, gets hard again and we start to fuck all over again. Sometimes in class he’ll lean over and whisper that he can’t wait to make love or fuck me later that night. Or I’ll say it to him, but the important thing is that he wants me as much as I want him.
I have finally decided to try to make these dreams into reality. I’m posi¬tive that Brian is attracted to me – he spends as much time as he can with me at school, sits as close to me as he can, we’ve had lunch together, etc. I don’t know what the story is with his marriage – we talk about everything but our spouses – but I’m guessing that he’s holding back because we’re both married. I don’t know exactly what I’m going to do yet, but I want this man! I want to explore all my sexual fantasies with him.