Who ever Thought Thus?

Something is causing Pain and something energizes the Agony: may it not be caused through the latent Idea of Supreme Bliss? And this eternal expectation, this amassing of ornament on decay, this ever-abiding thought- is coincidental with the vanity preceding death? O, squalid thought from the most morbid spleen how can I devour thee and save my Soul? Ever did it answer back-”Pay homage where due: the Physician is the Lord of existence!” This superstition of medicine-is it not the essence of cowardice, the agent of Death?

Strange no one remembers being dead? Have you ever seen the Sun?-If you have then you have seen nothing dead-in spite of you different belief! Which is the more dead “you” or this corpse? Which of you has the greater degree of consciousness? Judging by expression alone-which of you appears enjoying Life most? May not this “belief” in death be the “will” that attempts “death” for your satisfaction, but can give you no more than sleep, decay, change-hell? This constant somnambulism is “the unsatisfactory.”

You disbelieve in Ghosts and God-because you have not seen them? What! You have never seen the mocking ghosts of your beliefs?-the Laughing Bedlam of your humility or Mammon-your grotesque Ideas of “Self”? Yea, your very faculties and your most courageous Lies are Gods! Who is the slayer of your Gods-but a God!

There is no proof that you existed before? What an excuse! No one has returned to tell us? What a damning advocate! You are but what you were-somehow changed? You are the case Prima Facie that you are reincarnated to perhaps anything? “Perhapses” are possible! Can you do differently to what you do? Never shall I tire of asserting that you constantly do differently!

What is the “ugliness” that offends? Is it the vague knowledge that you will have to change your mind-that you are germinating what you contain? You are always remembering what you forgot; to-day may be the day of reckoning-of believing by force what you disbelieved? Now if to-day is yesterday in all but appearances-then to-morrow also is to-day- the day of decay! Daily is this universe destroyed, that is why you are conscious! There is no Life and Death? Such ideas should be less than comic.

There is no Duality?

You are conscious of the gay Butterfly you observe and are conscious of being “You”: the Butterfly is conscious of being “itself,” and as such, it is a consciousness as good as and the same as yours, i.e., of you being “you.” Therefore this consciousness of “you” that you both feel is the same “you”? Ergo, you are one and the same-the mystery of mysteries and the most simple thing in the world to understand! How could you be conscious of what you are not? But you might believe differently? So, if you hurt the Butterfly you hurt yourself, but your belief that you don’t hurt yourself protects you from hurt-for a time! Belief gets tired and you are miserably hurt! Do what you will-belief is ever its own inconsistency. Desire contains everything, hence you must believe in everything-if you believe at all! Belief seems to exclude commonsense.

There is no doubt about it-this consciousness of “Thee” and “Me” is the unwelcome but ever ready torturer-yet it “need not be so” in any sense! Is it not a matter of Fear?
You are fearsome of entering a den of Tigers? (And I assure you it is a matter of righteousness-(inborn or cultured)-whether you enter voluntarily or are chucked in, and whether you come out alive or not!) Yet daily you fearlessly enter dens inhabited by more terrible creatures than Tigers and you come out unharmed-why?

The Allegory.

Great scientists are finding out the death-dealing properties of the microbes they discover we breathe, and which according to their canons should destroy; we should be already dead? Have faith! The canons of science are quite correct, they do not disappoint the doubt! Our greater familiarity-”this impulse to knowledge” will certainly bring us the disease and death they give! And also give us in compensation their powers of destruction! For the destruction of whom? Things will be squared! Is this the value of the will? This “will to power”-how life preserving! How furthering of discriminate selection! How pleasing! Most noble explorers! O, you scientists-go on discovering the Bottomless Pit! When you are sodden with science-the lightning will thunder out the murder? New hope will be born? New creatures for the circus? (The conception of) God-head must ever evolve its inertia for transmutation to its very opposite-because it contains it!

The master must be the painful learner of his stupidity?

The idea of God ever means the forgetfulness of supremacy and Godliness. So must be supplanted by fear, eh?

There is no Atheist, no one is free from auto-biography, there is no fearless pleasurist?

The conception is the absence of its indisputable reality within! When the conception is memorial in forgetfulness-it may be the chance of its reality for you?? When the prayer-(you are always praying) has transmutated to its Blasphemy-you are attractive enough to be heard-your desire is gratified! What a somersault of humility!

Whether God is projected as master by fear or as the dweller within by love Gods we are all the time, that is why divinity is always potential. Its constant generation, the eternal delay-is life. This envy of the Master or Creator-the ultimate hope to follow in manner is also existence and the forfeiture of “Life”!

There is no scientific fact, it ever implies its opposite as equal fact, this is the “fact.” Then why trouble to prove anything a fact? This vain hope to prove finality is death itself, so why humbug the “Desire”? You have proved (by mathematics!) the sun to be so many millions of miles away from you-you will now improve its efficiency! Nature-that impulse to the antitheses of your truths, will early prove (by mathematics and whenever you like!) that the Sun does not exist at all! Or if you wish-it will prove conclusively that the Sun is millions of millions of miles further away or millions of miles nearer than you once thought! Most extraordinary thinker! These facts and many others are already know to the butterfly, the lice, the insects-and perhaps yourself? Whose senses are the more true-yours or the house-fly’s? You will eventually adopt their vision-their thoughts and wisdom-you were such once? You are such now but have not awakened them-you will be such again in power! Wondrous
progress! Most meritorious accomplishments! Most merciless! Progress should be closely examined and what you have gained by the convenience of science.

A thought for perspective-you are always what you most wish-the prospective! Your desire is to live according to your desire, and this you are always realizing! Most noble sentiment!-you are “it” already-”the satisfied”-”the desireless”-”the real thing”! You are drunk with it.

There is no illusion but consciousness! This consciousness is ever the smiling monument commemorating “Whether you ever really enjoyed Life”!

The God of the “Will” is the command to obey, its Justice everyone fears-it is a Sword-your desert for obedience! “Will” is the command to believe, your will is what you have believed actively willing the belief for you! You think when “it” wishes! “Will” is complication, the means of a means. Call this will free or not-beyond will and belief is Self-love. I know of no better name. It is free to believe what it desires. You are free to believe in nothing related to belief. The “Truth” is not difficult to understand! The truth has no will-will has no truth! Truth is “will” never believed-it has no truth! “Could be”-is the immediate certainty! This haunting Sphinx teaches us the value of the “will to anything”? Then there is no graver risk than Absolute Knowledge-if little is dangerous-what about Omniscience? The Almighty power has no accessories!

Science is the accursed doubt of the possible, yea, of what does exist! You cannot conceive an impossibility, nothing is impossible, you are the impossible! Doubt is delay-time-but how it punishes! Nothing is more true than anything else! What are you not-you ever answered truthfully?

You tyrannise over yourself, so constantly forget what you remember; you resist sense objects and show resistance to the faculties by believing or not. These faculties are as numerous as the atoms you have not yet seen, and they are as endless as the number one-they come into life at will. You adopt a few at a time- knowledge you speak through them- did you but understand your grammar those you disown speak louder than your words! I would not believe the wisdom of the Almighty.

Belief is ever its own tempter to believe differently; you cannot believe freedom but you may be freed from belief? Neither can you believe the “Truth” but you need not compromise yourself. The way of Life is not by “means”-these doctrines-my doctrines even though they allow the self-appointed devotee to emulate my realization- may I ever blush! The man of sorrows is the Teacher! I have taught- would I teach myself or thee again? Not for a gift from Heaven! Mastership equals learning- equals constant unlearning! Almighty is he who has not learnt and mighty is the babe- it has only the power of assimilating!

The most solecistical of fools now asks-”how can we escape the inevitable evolutions of conception-as all is ever conceiving”? My answer shall permit all means, all men, all conditions. Listen, O, God that art, yet would be God. When the mind is nonplussed- capability to attempt the impossible becomes known; by that most simple state of “Neither-Neither” the Ego becomes the Silent Watcher and knows about it all! The “Why” and “How” of desire is contained within the mystic state of “Neither-
Neither” and common-sense proves it is the milk state, most nutritious! Clownish that I am- yet all my ideas have come out of it (and, my friend, all yours), but ever have I been a sluggard- an old sinner who would see others almighty before himself.